Sunday, October 9, 2011

My heart hurts

Not knowing is killing me. 

Is he OK? 

Dexter got out this morning and hasn't come home yet.  It's been approximately 9 hours.

Did someone see him and are keeping him somewhere safe until tomorrow when they can contact the vet on his tag???

I left the gate open last night.  We had gone for a walk and he wasn't on a leash.  He decided to cut around to the front of the house instead of going in the back gate.  I brought the dogs in the front, completely forgetting about the open back.  We were inside together all night.

He has a dog door to use as he pleases, but didn't realize the back gate was open until this morning, I think.

Did he go in the woods?  Did something hurt him?

Texas is in a drought.  Like the worst drought ever, but today it is thundering and pouring and pouring some more and my dog is out in this.  I have gone out on foot multiple times, thinking maybe I would see him.  I got in the car and drove and Tressa did, too, but nothing.

He has gone out before, but he always comes back shortly, this isn't like him at all.

Did he get hit by a car?

I called the animal emergency clinic and they hadn't seen him, but they have my number in case someone calls in or brings him there. I also called my vet and left a number where they could reach me if someone calls their number from his tag tomorrow.

I almost walked them first this morning.  I was lying in bed thinking about working out, listening to the rain.  I considered walking the dogs first, but it's always hard for me to come back inside and start working out, so I decided to work out first.  I already had water next to my bed, so I didn't need to go in the kitchen where Dexter typically sleeps.  I thought about closing the dog door because of the rain, but it wasn't raining too hard, so I decided not to.

If I had walked them first, maybe I would have caught him before he noticed the gate.  If I had shut the dog door, maybe I would have caught him before he went outside. No matter, I didn't.  I just worked out in the room, completely oblivious to the fact that my dog was running free outside.

You have no idea how much I love him.  It is ripping my insides out.

Maybe someone has him.  Maybe they will call tomorrow. 

I know things happen.  I know he might be perfectly fine.  I know everyone in the family is so happy it was me who left the gate open and not them.

Please make him be alright.